Monday, December 6, 2010

Wating and waiting

What do you do when you think you are 8 weeks pregnant, then do an ultrasound that shows no baby? I wish I could have posted the great news instead of this, but I need your prayers! A little over a week ago I had reason to suspect some problem, so I was advised to get an ultrasound. But, no embryo was to be seen. the Dr mentioned a blighted ovum. If you have ever been diagnosed with it, then you know how confusing it really is. You feel pregnant, you have morning sickness, you gain weight, you have all the pregnancy symptoms, yet you have no way of knowing for sure if you really are pregnant, or your body just thinks it is and holds on the whatever is left. The last thing you want to do is to induce a miscarriage in case there is a small chance that the baby is still there, only hidden. I have heard of people having done abortions thinking the ultrasound was right. I can not bear to think of doing that. But what should I do? I can not do much except wait, wait on the Lord. This is really hard to do. I believe if time just goes on and nothing changes, we will do another exam and hope it can clarify things for us. Some days I want to believe the baby is still there, some days I think it's not and wonder how much longer will I have to suffer...I have posted this verse on my fridge and it is a song I sing a lot lately:

"Those that wait on Jehovah will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles; they will walk and not become weary; they will run and will not faint" Isaiah 40:31

  here is another verse I really enjoy, 

"For we know that all things work together for good to those who love God..." Romans 8:28

The key is to love God, no matter the situation. I told my sister I feel like Abraham, having laid my 'Isaac' on the altar. He is still there, and I am still waiting for God to speak...




3 comments:

  1. Annie I am so sorry to hear this and know you are suffering and not knowing. So hard. That same verse has been my comfort lately, both of them actually. I will pray for you.

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  2. I hope you're hanging in there. We certainly don't understand but there is a reason for everything...
    I haven't been able to email you.. do you have another address? Will keep praying.

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